Permanently

Got the permanent post yesterday. Went to se the respective director for report duty. Got placed in one of the section, got my table, got my computer ( a brand new one)... but I haven't got heart to start my life here! Keep thinking about my teruna in Klang and my other half in Kuantan. I questioned myself whether we can function as a family this way? Whether my teruna will question one day.. of why he has to live with people other than his own parents? Am I a bad mother for leaving my teruna under my mum's care? I don't have answers to all these questions, I really don't..... I hope I'll get it soon... Ya Allah I pray to you to give me strength to endure this.